READ THIS BOOK - Americanah by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie

Americanah is a story about wealth and privilege, war and peace, love and the shields that deflect its arrows, whites and blacks, African-Americans and Non-American Blacks, poverty and riches, the United States and the world, and finally, Ifemelu and Obinze. It's a story of many competing themes that never seem to trip over each other; instead, they weave together seamlessly.

Ifemelu is a Nigerian girl who emigrates to the United States after high school to attend college. She begins to blog about her experiences in America, and the blog posts alone are worth the price of admission for this novel. Obinze, Ifemelu's boyfriend and love from high school, has his own travails as he grows into a man. The novel follows both of them with an amazing depiction and vantage point of the lives and countries they see and live.

Author Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie, who is also a Nigerian, captures these characters in all of their humanity. All of them are flawed, and the ones that mask their flaws behind their pride prove to be the most insecure and miserable. The many characters that briefly pass through Ifmelu and Obinze's life are also incredibly well drawn. For example, one description of a corrupt politician, "Ferdinand, a stocky acquaintance of Chief’s who had run for governor in the last elections, had lost, and, as all losing politicians did, had gone to court to challenge the results. Ferdinand had a steely, amoral face; if one examined his hands, the blood of his enemies might be found crusted under his fingernails."

Most impressive was Adhichie's ability to succinctly describe the ease that wealth and privilege enable while the burdens of poverty and "choicelessness" (as she puts it) disable so much. I wanted to provide some of my favorite passages in regards to this in the hopes that a few of you would read this book! (I included a link at the bottom if you have a Kindle and/or want to buy from Amazon).

1.  "There was a certain luxury to charity that she could not identify with and did not have.  To take 'charity' for granted, to revel in this charity towards people whom one did not know - perhaps it came from having had yesterday and having today and expecting to have tomorrow. She envied them this…Ifemelu wanted, suddenly and desperately, to be from the country of people who gave and not those who received.  To be one of those who had and could therefore bask in the grace of having given, to be among those who could afford copious pity and empathy."

2.  "She liked, most of all, that in this place of affluent ease, she could pretend to be someone else, someone specially admitted into a hallowed American club, someone adorned with certainty."

3.  "The stories of his wealth made her assume he had changed more than he possibly could have.  People often told him how humble he was, but they did not mean real humility, it was merely that he did not flaunt his membership in the wealthy club, did not exercise the rights it brought – to be rude, to be inconsiderate, to be greeted rather than to greet - and because so many others like him exercised those rights, his choices were interpreted as humility.  He did not boast, either, or speak about things he owned, which made people assume he owned much more than he did.  Even his closest friend, Okwudiba, told him how humble he was, and it irked him slightly, because he wished Okwudiba would see that to call him humble was to make rudeness normal.  Besides, humility had always seemed to him specious thing, invented for the comfort of others; you were praised for humility by people because you did not make them feel any more lacking than they already did.  It was honesty that he valued; he had always wished himself to be truly honest, and always feared that he was not."

4.  "His friends were like him, sunny and wealthy people who existed on the glimmering surface of things… He was always thinking of what else to do and she told him that it was rare for her, because she had grown up not doing, but being."

5.  "Ifemelu would also come to learn that, for Kimberly, the poor were blameless. Poverty was a gleaming thing; she could not conceive of poor people being vicious or nasty because their poverty had canonized them, and the greatest saints were the foreign poor."

6.  "Alexa, and the other guests, and perhaps even Georgina, all understood the fleeing from war, from the kind of poverty that crushed human souls, but they would not understand the need to escape from the oppressive lethargy of choicelessness.  They would not understand why people like him, who were raised well fed and watered but mired in dissatisfaction, conditioned from birth to look towards somewhere else, eternally convinced that real lives happened in that somewhere else, were now resolved to do dangerous things, illegal things, so as to leave, none of them starving, or raped, or from burned villages, but merely hungry for choice and certainty."

Americanah
$10.00
By Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie
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30 Seconds to Mars Documentary

I recently watched a documentary, Artifact, that followed the band 30 Seconds to Mars as they tried to make an album, This Is War, while its record label, EMI, sued the band for $30 million for a breach of its contract after the band was pissed at EMI for failing to pay them their royalties. I thought the documentary was an incredibly enlightening depiction of the record industry, and a big label trying to wrap its grubby paws around as many bands as possible, sucking all life and creative energy out of these individuals while taking any and all money in its path in the name of legalese. There's a great part where Jared Leto gets legal advice for about one minute on his cell phone, hangs up, then forgets to ask how much it cost, wondering if the band even has the money to pay the lawyer for that one minute.  

Despite what my initial impressions were of Jared Leto (and more accurately: the celebrity machine that follows him), he comes off as incredibly likable and driven by his passion for music and art. After watching this, I really have a lot of respect for the guy. He is a very talented and blessed individual to be able to provide so many people a degree of happiness in music, TV, and film. I can also say from experience that he flies coach! 

This documentary got me thinking about the long lost idea of bands "selling out." Once people started stealing all of these artist's music, selling out was no longer called out because it was hypocritical to call someone out for wanting money as people picked their pockets. So bands turned to different forms of music that may have a broader appeal with the masses. Then advertising began to take advantage of this movement as bands' songs began to be featured in commercials, movies, TV, and so forth. The people in these bands have to make a living somehow and as evidenced in the 30 Seconds to Mars documentary, it's clearly not in album sales (save for the Katy Perry's and Taylor Swift's of the world). This is their livelihood. I read an interesting take from an advertising executive who had previously been in a rock band who bluntly stated that artists' distrust of record labels has brought a transparency to brands. While the brand plays their songs in their ads, the hope is the artist at least understands how these brands are using their songs. As I watched Artifact, this quote (TANGENT: which I came across because I was reading a bunch of David Carr's articles after his death - this article is hilarious and seems to encapsulate Carr as he goes to SXSW and is amazed at the degree music and brands have become somewhat of a packaged product), although somewhat depressing, spoke volumes to the state of music right now (and that being said - please go support bands at live venues!!):    

"The willingness of artists to partner with brands happened because revenues dried up from physical discs,” Peter Gannon from an advertising agency said. “The labels are not going to get a lot of sympathy because they were not very good to artists. At least when a brand is involved, there is an understanding that we are borrowing the cachet that the artist has built and we try to make high-quality projects that give value to both the client and the artist.”

Attention Alpha Males

Clearly, our alpha male stereotype could use a corrective makeover. Men can learn a thing or two from real wolves: less snarl, more quiet confidence, leading by example, faithful devotion in the care and defense of families, respect for females and a sharing of responsibilities. That’s really what wolfing up should mean.

- Carl Safina, Tapping Your Inner Wolf, New York Times, June 5, 2015

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Oh This Love

when it hits your veins
your eyes the blinds the time
it all starts closing in
and the needle drips 
untied i sit
the sweat it sticks
the mind relays
leave me be for me to see for me to hug relentlessly

just
don't fade away
don't fade
don't

i don't know when it's gonna end
because this love it's got me sick again
i don't know when it's gonna end...
Oh this love.

when it hits your veins
that's it i quit i'm never stopping it
and the needle drips
the earth it sits
so far from it
i'm miles away
leave me be for me to see to spend my days comfortably
it's all I have it's all I will it's all I want it's all for me

just
don't fade away
don't fade
don't

and I don't know when it's gonna end
because this love it's got me sick again
and I don't know when it's gonna end...
Oh this love.

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Are You an Explorer or Adventurer?

"In her novel "The Dispossessed," Ursula K. Le Guin makes a distinction between explorers and adventurers: 'The explorer who will not come back or send back his ships to tell his tale is not an explorer, only an adventurer; and his sons are born in exile.'"

David Dark, What Must I Do to Be Born Again?: The Open Hands of Kendrick Lamar, March 26, 2015Pitchfork

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B.B. King, 1925 - 2015

I have an interest in obituaries of all kinds (like my dad says, "Obits are the Irish sport pages"), but when it comes to the deaths of musicians, a retrospect or glimpse into their lives provides so much creative energy for me because their genuine love for art is so inspiring. I had the good fortune to see B.B. (his nickname that stood for "Blues Boy") King live once in my life as he played a show with Buddy Guy about a decade ago. King sauntered up to his chair, took a seat, grabbed the love of his life (his affectionately named guitar, Lucille), and the blues poured out. I felt the notes, the rhythm, and the power of King's vibratos, slides and trills.

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The Spirit Prevails - Sheryl Sandberg

We had 11 truly joyful years of the deepest love, happiest marriage, and truest partnership that I could imagine... He gave me the experience of being deeply understood, truly supported and completely and utterly loved – and I will carry that with me always. Most importantly, he gave me the two most amazing children in the world.

Dave was my rock. When I got upset, he stayed calm. When I was worried, he said it would be ok. When I wasn’t sure what to do, he figured it out. He was completely dedicated to his children in every way – and their strength these past few days is the best sign I could have that Dave is still here with us in spirit. 

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Making Art Artless

“With this record, I needed to extract myself out of this environment of make-believe. It's something that was necessary for me to do in the wake of my mother's death — to pursue a sense of peace and serenity in spite of suffering. It's not really trying to say anything new, or prove anything, or innovate. It feels artless, which is a good thing. This is not my art project; this is my life.”

- Sufjan Stevens, True Myth: A Conversation with Sufjan Stevensby Ryan Dombal, Pitchfork, February 16, 2015

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Tracks

I remember when you were walking away 
the trains labored to keep time
The tracks were frozen
and my heart kept pace.
12:30 
as you walked underneath  
the clock overhead
pointing away.

Your strides always fell behind mine
I’d slow down as you held me back in line
and whispered to leave the rush and keep the time. 

We got here
because of your hatred of fear.
That child who broke your heart
who cheated and smeared the entrails
in front of you to hear:
Her name was Jane.

She remained
above our surface
No matter the dive 
deep inside, below whatever kept that alive
we always came back for air.

Whatever I shaped
you pushed and pushed away
the feelings of her name, his name.
Your worry lines narrated times
of your past present in the future,
never trusting a being again.
My hope, over many months as colors changed, 
was pictured in frames of different days
if you had never met him, a separate physical plane,
where we grew to walk in time.

I think you trusted him 
with every speck and freckle,
dime and nickel,
tangible, intangible.
Trust is a gesture that leaves us
and empowers the others hold, thus 
we become one, vulnerable 
to be crushed, faithful
to be forever loved.
I held but felt
the former had its say
for no more gestures would be made. 
There’s only so much blood the heart will bleed
till its worn and withered away.

Years later,
I wrote you a letter
that remains unanswered,
and I still wonder if you feel the same.
I dream sometimes we’re still entwined
after getting through what we had to
and you became
you,
whole and true,
knowing how much I loved you. 

Months before we met,
I saw you
in that floral print
to your knees it went
as your little Converse kicks
scuffed up the dance floor.
Guy after guy approached,
you smiled,
shook your head no,
and danced alone.

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